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Awakening
02:04
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2. |
Useless Fantasy
05:01
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Such a useless fantasy
The thought of someone truly loving me
A pathetic waste of energy
My life consumed by love’s futility
My heart raped by reality
A life of solitary strands of modesty
Abandoned by hostility
My fear preventing love’s atrocities
Can’t understand
My heart’s lone desire
Can’t comprehend
It pulls at my soul
Fading away
The dream of desire
Coming to terms
With love’s abandonment
The crushing depths of misery
Seem to be all that encompass me
The faded hopes of sanity
Stand in circles, facing, haunting me
Attempts to write this poetry
I come face to face with honesty
But humility is blinding me
To my innate inborn hypocrisy
I must control!
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3. |
Living is but Dying Well
04:14
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I’m contemplating the end
Zero hour rears its head
Abandon the dead
To be amidst the living
To live is to die
And dying is but living well
A search for the end
The end of the beginning of the end
I cradle my mind
Whispering my final hour
Abandon my mind
The heart will bleed away
Follow the blood
Follow from the red till brown
Escaping the end
By ending death in life’s remembrance
Erasing the time
You spent to worship death eternal
Limit the time
You spend to run from life
Embracing the end
The end of that which cannot live
In death do we choose
We choose a life we find worth living
Anger the gods
The gods of love and virtue
Remember the dreams
The dreams they used to crush you
Silence the pleas
The calls for death and anger
Announcing the end
The end of all which brings the end
Watch the burning
World stop turning
Find your place
Amongst the living
Crucify that
Which devours
Desire the blind
The eye to see the fracture
The splitting of time
The future falls asleep
Awaken the now
The now that leads to memory
Live in the awe
In death you find no glorified end
Assemble the gods
Divinity is life’s creation
Cherish the mind
Wallowing as death’s extinct
To die is to live
And living is but dying well
A search for new life
New life in facing death
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4. |
Alive
03:36
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That which should be mine
But conceived in his time
Finds its way to haunt me again
Though yielding no eyes
No heart to despise
You awaken my demons again
Sorrow
Alive
Anger
Alive
Born into a life
Where silence is law
You’ll find a rage within your soul
No heart to behold
No love to be known
Your life will be a burden again
Nothing left to lose
Nothing left to choose
Nothing left to die for
I can see the sun set with every word I speak
The light fades away as I dreamed it never would
Nothing I say is heard, and nothing I hear is said
It’s spoken in the language of the heart, and mine is dead
Emptiness
Alive
Death
Alive
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5. |
Selfless Child
04:02
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Why do you try to deny
The hate that’s burning inside
Disguised as a pitiful smile
A deceptive heart with a withering cry
You claim to love, that your love is blind
You’re suffocating
On your web of lies
You’re masquerading
As a selfless child
Intoxicating
The seductive lies
Manipulating
You worthless child
Why do I try to believe
In a love that I never receive?
Why have faith in a heart that deceives?
A malevolent heart with a vengeful eye
You strike at me with a lover’s smile
Why do you try to relieve
The hate that’s burning in me
Disguised as humility
But enraged by the anger in me
No one can love me
No one can love me
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6. |
I Love Your Hate
06:46
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Look at me
I’ve fallen from your grace
Punish me
My dearest god
Follow me
Into the depths of hell
Ravish me
For I have sinned
I love your hate
I breathe your spite
I take your rage
I bless your curse
You plague me
I love you
You hate me
I love you
Father
Marvelous
Your rage arouses me
I see my fall
Too far away
The bitter sin
It calls to me
The consequence
Entices me
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I am your past...and I will remain to haunt you...
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8. |
Senseless Joy
03:41
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Anger, lust and vengeful desire
Find their way to pry into my heart
And though they’re part of me
I try to wish them away
Senseless joy in every disaster
Separates my ego from my mind
And though it’s part of me
I push it far away
Delve into repression
And sanctify your soul
Lapse into aggression
Abandon all control
Drowning in a sea of emotion
Sinking past the point of no return
And yet I find in me
A voice that summons my soul
Tempting though it may be to follow
Silence is my only hope at all
And yet I find in me
A voice condemning my soul
I see the world as an image of myself
A core of violence and hatred encased in a shell of hypocrisy
Have I no place in such a world that birthed my ways?
Am I truly an evil in such a world, or merely a manifestation of the world’s hate?
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9. |
Take Control
04:31
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Anger, lust and vengeful desire
Find their way to pry into my heart
And though they’re part of me
I try to wish them away
Senseless joy in every disaster
Separates my ego from my mind
And though it’s part of me
I push it far away
Delve into repression
And sanctify your soul
Lapse into aggression
Abandon all control
Drowning in a sea of emotion
Sinking past the point of no return
And yet I find in me
A voice that summons my soul
Tempting though it may be to follow
Silence is my only hope at all
And yet I find in me
A voice condemning my soul
I see the world as an image of myself
A core of violence and hatred encased in a shell of hypocrisy
Have I no place in such a world that birthed my ways?
Am I truly an evil in such a world, or merely a manifestation of the world’s hate?
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10. |
Futile Questions
04:10
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What brought me here?
Was it a life of mistakes?
Watch them
Fly in circles
As they awaken
From their sleep
Watch them
Descend upon me
To feed a craving
Of my life
Was of all of this
A life in vein, all a waist?
A gift?
A joke?
A curse?
A reward?
It’s over now
Watch them
Fly in circles
As they awaken
From their sleep
Watch them
Descent upon me
To feed upon me
There’s nothing left…
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11. |
Westward Soul
06:03
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I’m trapped inside of this sobriety
Consumed by life’s anxiety
I seek aphelion the sun left far behind
A shameful prison awaits, already dead inside
What lies before me?
In this endeavor
Eternal darkness?
Infernal Absence?
And this before me, westward soul
I can’t escape from this insanity
Blinded by fear, irrationality
The setting sun reveals where I must lie
Before I slip away, suicide
Directions failing me, I thought that I’d be free
Not a prisoner within, I can’t escape from this undying dream
Conceived before my eyes
A lie inside
My life reborn
And trapped within this fate
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12. |
Closure
06:30
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What you took from me
What I had to give
I can no longer claim as my own
What I have become
What I was but lost
You can no longer claim as your own
See this soul, know this life
Beyond your own there’s love
Can you know another soul?
Can you love at all?
Can you?
What you’ve raped of me
I cannot reclaim
A tolerance for selfishness and lies
All I ask of you
For what you’ve put me through
An understanding look in your eyes
Tell me
I’m sorry
I plead for your love
I’m sorry
I plead for you heart
Erase my sins
Forgive all my words
I saw only one
I saw only me
For me
I silenced your heart
To hear only mine
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Of Two Minds Los Angeles, California
Of Two Minds fuses the influences of Nine Inch Nails, Rammstein, and Static X with more traditional metal influences. Mixing crushing metal riffs with heavily layered synthesizers and electronic drumming, the music is dark and intense with vocals, providing the deeply emotional and energetic vocals. Human Error contains a collection of songs that speak to the human experience. ... more
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